random existence

Somedays I feel that I am wandering around on a black sea searching for something I can not name. I think most of us feel this way on one day or another. I feel this way more often than not. In a way its one of those great things that unite us all. This feeling of being disconnected to something we can not name. We go about our daily lives pay bill, buy bread, read to our kids. But beneath the daily grind of life, is this emotion. Well, it is more than emotion is it something more like a mental state. I do believe there are some that don't feel it, but those people are rare. I for one don't believe people like Ghandi felt it. Maybe at first in the beginning of their lives, but something happend on their path. This happening "connected" them to this thing we search for that has no name. A challenge it is to imagine walking around feeling "connected' and "tuned in' and "okay'. Actually it is more than feeling just okay, it is feeling more than what we see we are. We no longer just wonder in the possiblities of the unknown. Some how we go past it, and walk into our possbilities. Perhap that is how some people end up with extraordinary lives. Lifetimes so full and overflowing with the essenece of what life is. People who not only raise themselves above the mudane, but lift others with them. I wonder if these people ever started out going to the grocery store and paying their electric bill? And one day something amazing happend and it all changed? I will continue to see those things that i do not understand, I will continue to reach out for those things that I can't see but I feel are there. Will i have rise to that possiblity my life offers. I hope so, how will i get there? well that is for me to think on , when i go back to the grocery store.